The fact that this experience of Divine connection always seemed to be initiated near the time every day that I came into this world somehow seemed meaningful to me. At the very least, I could not ignore the perfect symmetry of it.
Through the years, then, whenever I found myself suddenly wide awake between 4:15 and 4:30 in the morning, eyes staring at the ceiling, a certain energy coursing through my body, I knew what was going on. I got up immediately, raced to my laptop, and opened myself to whatever wanted to come through.
And so it was on this day, August 2, 2016. I’ve just thrown back the covers and pulled myself out of bed. Now here I am at the keyboard. The only thing is, I didn’t think I’d be doing this again.
All of us are having what I have come to call conversations with God all the time. This was made clear to me on page five of the over 3,000 pages of the published CWG dialogues. So my experience was not unique, not uncommon. What was perhaps a bit unusual was that I made a written record of my innermost encounters, and then sent it to a publisher—who in turn actually printed it and placed it in bookstores.
I have come to understand and to experience that I (and all of us) have a deep and personal connection with God all the time, and that we may have an actual communication with The Divine, asking for guidance, help, insight, and assistance, whenever we wish. That was, in fact, the point of the book. It was placed into the world to open other people everywhere to this experience; to invite them to a new and more personal relationship with God.
The feeling that I must have such a dialogue, however—that “the time has come” for such an interaction, signaled by a deep inner feeling welling within me that cannot be ignored—is something else altogether. I experience this as a feeling that comes over me, and I haven’t had this feeling for nearly ten years. So I’ve held the idea that I had encountered it for the last time.
Oh, I knew I’d be writing again. I’ll always be writing something. A column for Huffington Post. A blog for CWG Connect. A Facebook entry. An answer to someone posting a question at Ask Neale. Even a full-length book exploring in depth the messages I’ve received. Something.
But another on-paper conversation with God? Another back-and-forth dialogue with Deity? I thought those days were over. I thought that process was complete.